lost in life

hmmmmm.....

2006-01-06T05:05:13Z

apearently i should think about majoring in philosophy

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence.

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Engineering

83%

Philosophy

83%

Mathematics

75%

Journalism

75%

Sociology

67%

Art

67%

Chemistry

58%

English

50%

Psychology

50%

Theater

42%

Dance

42%

Biology

33%

Linguistics

25%

Anthropology

25%

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black_virus @ 2005-12-23T15:04:00

2005-12-23T20:04:51Z

i used my middle name instead and the only difference was that my weakness was chocolate instead of caffeine, but i think caffeine fits me better than chocolate.

black_virus @ 2005-09-19T00:27:00

2005-09-19T04:28:30Z

Happy birthday Emy! sorry i forgot that you're birthday was a week ago, i just haven't talked to you in forever and i didn't have anything to remind me of it. so i'm sorry it's late but happy birthday!

black_virus @ 2005-09-18T16:58:00

2005-09-18T21:13:26Z

i was thinking about slitting my wrists again today, but i thought against it because i remembered how stupid it is to do that. someone tell me why this hurts me so much more than it hurts her. why can she go on with her life as if what happened only 2 weeks ago happened 6 months ago. it's simple, i fucked up and i feel so guilty for it and she's happy that she got out of a relationship that she didn't want to be in anymore. i would give anything to be back with her right now, but she's found someone better that me, so i'm screwed. i still hope that there's a chance for us to get back together. i dont know what i would do if there isn't. maybe try to find a sharper razor... maybe try to find someone else. everyone always says there's other fish in the sea. and true there may be more than just one fish for everyone. but what if you find the rarest of all the fish out there. you would spend your time trying to catch it again. i'm not posting this for attention. i'm not even sure anyone reads this anymore. i don't think anyone does. and i really doubt madalyne does anymore because she knows how little i post on my livejournal so i don't think she's even checked to see if i have updated for a long time now. this is just somewhere i can talk about what's wrong and there's a slight chance that someone will be able to give me advice that i can follow.

well i'm going to work now. if anyone has advice for me reply and i'll check it out.

black_virus @ 2004-12-19T19:03:00

2004-12-20T00:03:15Z

You Are the Helper

2

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What number are you?

black_virus @ 2004-12-09T23:59:00

2004-12-10T05:00:38Z

Your Erotic LJ dream by cozzette

username

you went to bed feeling

You began to dream about

tearsoftitanium

who was

dominating you

a hotel room

with

thier hands tied

which made you

stiff/wet

but was interupted by

satansleighbels

who began to

participate

You awoke

hoping you dont talk in your sleep

and you hope

that dreams do come true

chance of that happening:: 91%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

I AM DEATH COW!!!!

2004-12-09T15:59:08Z

DEATH COW HEARTS ATOMIC THUNDER</c>

Your Silver-Age Superhero Career

LJ Username

Your alias first-name is:

Your alias last-name is:

You can turn....

...into:

You team up with...

dearshiradear

...to battle:

Fidel Castro

You petition to join:

the Fantastic Four

Their response:

you're not sure, but you wake up outside with the door shut and locked behind you

You are best remembered for:

endorsing McDonald's Super Size Artery-Clogger Burger

Your heroic level: - 67%

This fun quiz by sigma7 - Taken 14046 Times.
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it's madalyne time again!

2004-09-09T13:53:35Z

it's that time agian... time to be excited because madalyne is back. nothing eventful has happened latley. i'm trying to convince kevin to come to New York with me. leave a post and tell him if he should go or not. really cheap airfare and he'll be staying in a really nice room with me for only $40 a night each. three days, two nights. i think he should go. ok bye.

LIFE IN WILMINTON SUCKS!</c>

i came over for a booty call yesterday.... man oh man was that fun.

black_virus @ 2004-09-02T23:06:00

2004-09-03T03:29:52Z

kevin is a slack bitch...

2004-09-02T13:12:55Z

yeah well this is madalyne, kevin's girl. he is a slack bitch because he never updates, but none the less i love him. so chemistry class is boring, but i think he likes college ok. i keep asking him to skip classes, but he's a good student, won't do it. we went and saw rachel last weekend and took her a bunch of baby stuff. i love babies.... kevin does not when it comes to having them. can't blame him. it's cold in here. i think kevin is great in the whole naked cateagory.... sorry that was random. yup, apparently i'm pressuring him into buying me a ring, sorry world, i just want to be with him. i need to take a shower, ewww... stinky madalyne. oh wait i did that this morning. class will be over soon. breakfast maybe.... mmmmm.... breakfast kevin. i'm pretty sure he's getting freaked out by my updating his livejournal...
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yeah i'm the sickest person you know

hi

2004-07-25T14:11:47Z

i haven't updated in a long ass time. i guess it's time to update it again. well, not much has happened as of late. Madalyne went to virginia for this weekend, and i've been bored out of my mind. i hope she e-mails me or posts a reply to this post or calls me. but i'm pretty sure she might be coming home soon. so yeah, other than graduating and registering for classes i guess not a damn thing has happend.
first semester college classes: basic chemistry, computer programming: java script, English 101, and Calculus and Analytical geometry. and the great thing is that if i pass calculus and analytical geometry with a c or better, i also get credit for math 115. which with both i'l get 7 credit hours for on class. oh yeah, and i'm going to UNCW. yes i'm still going to live at home, but as soon as i can afford to get an appartment with someone i'm probly going to move out. well, i have to go change the oil in my car so i'll try and post more from now on.

black_virus @ 2004-03-20T18:03:00

2004-03-20T23:06:01Z

a couple quotes from last night...

Me: I'm not a good kisser
Madalyne & Morgan at the same time: Yes, you are!

Madalyne: I want to eat your Ho Twings!

black_virus @ 2004-03-19T14:04:00

2004-03-19T19:07:28Z

As Madalyne put it:

Matt didn't die, he faked his death so he could move to Jamaica to live his life as a pornstar and hang out with Mr. Dugan, Elvis and Tupac

We'll all miss you man

Matt Fucking Recko
1984-2004

long time

2004-02-25T21:09:59Z

yeah, it's been a long time since i've posted so i decided to post something that i wrote monday in class because i had 5 minutes to kill.

~Lament for Hope~
Held in such high reguard
At a simple glance
Shooting through the cold
Black velvet. But like
The stars, held so dear
To some, the light dims
And fades with
Every closer look, with
Every moment passed,
It dies.
Loathing its eternal fate.
Nothing more
Than matter
drifting through space

tell me what you think. so anyways i think i'll get back to work now. i'll try to post later tonight.

i am oh so pathetic

2004-02-10T23:39:41Z

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:	Mysterious unsolved murder. The killer was never found and neither was your body. Your casket is empty and you family mourns till this day in hopes that you are still alive or died a swift death.
Death Date:	February 2, 2009
Number attending your funeral?	2
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$527,086

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What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:	You always were kinky in your sex life and took it just a bit to far. You died over doing breath control, blood play, or some other strange kink.
Death Date:	August 23, 2011
Number attending your funeral?	2
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$1,248,152

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2 people will be coming to my funeral... that sucks

black_virus @ 2004-02-07T11:01:00

2004-02-07T16:01:38Z

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Jock
Your Favorite Band/Song	Aerosmith - Walk This Way
You Like To Read:	Romance novels
You Firmly Believe In:	Sex at first sight
Everyone Thinks You Are:	A complete loser
You Were Conceived:	In the mall
You Will Marry:	A respectable person

Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

black_virus @ 2004-02-06T21:44:00

2004-02-07T02:50:03Z

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black_virus @ 2004-01-26T16:54:00

2004-01-26T22:53:56Z

so vlad thinks he's trying to save me by telling me shit about "me" so that i'll stay away, but in truth it's hurting more than helping. now, if something she's not telling me is really that important, why wait for her to tell me and not just tell me yourself? that's all you've done, i ask you to tell me something but you tell me to ask her, then you just laugh at what she says and say something about it. this would be why i don't heed your "warnings", not to mention i trust her more than either of you think i do. also if i'm correct, your warnings were that things would never go as far as they have gone, so amuse me with explaining why things have gone the way they have and how it's going to end.

black_virus @ 2004-01-20T16:37:00

2004-01-20T21:39:45Z

so yes, i've come to the conclusion that vodka is good, except for reason that will remain unrevealed to the public, and 9 shots in 2 hours will fuck you up. my weekend was great :)

black_virus @ 2004-01-12T18:26:00

2004-01-13T00:21:34Z

so yeah... i've been thinking alot lately, about the decisions i've made in the past month, and i couldn't be happier with how things are going right now. Did good on my exams and grades last sememster, not depressed, i'm getting out of the house more, and Madalyne and I are officially going out now (which is the main cause of me not being depressed a very happy with how things are). this weekend i'm going to Myrtle Beach, and if she wants to Madalyne's coming with and i have no clue what exactly we're gonna do though... but doesn't really matter because i haven't hung out with her outside of school since new years eve and i'm happy to go anywhere with her.

and now i'm going to go watch tv....

black_virus @ 2004-01-09T00:26:00

2004-01-09T05:28:20Z

and then charlie was like "mmm, that quesadilla was really good" and i was like yeah whatever!.. cuz this is my united states of whatever!

black_virus @ 2004-01-07T21:51:00

2004-01-08T02:51:09Z

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:	An Emotion without You
You sound like:	The Cure
You will be signed to:	Saddle Creek Records
Your emo lyrics are:	"The scar you left me on my heart will peel off and bleed some more"
Name:

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black_virus @ 2004-01-06T16:42:00

2004-01-06T21:42:20Z

LJ Barcode

black_virus @ 2004-01-05T17:36:00

2004-01-06T00:38:26Z

is u raver?

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someone get me out of here

2003-12-27T04:35:26Z

blah......... bored........ someone come hit me up side the head cuz i'm bored!!!!!!! or do something... so bored i've taken 3 showers in the past 2 hours. yeah... i'm gonna go find some new trance to download cuz i've haven't done that in a while.

What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is	very high
You are a	gamer geek
Your strength is	you can see in the dark
Your weakness is	caffine
You think normal people are	interesting
Normal people think that you are	weird

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What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is	high
You are a	gamer geek
Your strength is	you can see in the dark
Your weakness is	chocolate
You think normal people are	interesting
Normal people think that you are	weird

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